Hello, my name is Amy.  I wish I had an itemized list of things for you to complete and once finished you would find eternal happiness. I, however, do not have a perfect list. I don’t know what would make you happy. To be completely honest I don’t know what I need to do to be happy but I have strong hunches of what would bring me peace of mind. Being human is a bitch.  We have to figure out how to deal with our emotions, function in life to make a living and then attempt to co-exist with each other whilst not killing anyone. Let’s be real with each other, even if I did have a list of what you could do to be the happiest version of yourself, I would bet 99.9% of us wouldn’t do a damn thing on the list. Free will is a bitch sometimes.  Why do we all insist on suffering?  Why do I choose to suffer?  I am still working on figuring that out.  However, I am determined to break the pattern and find happiness. I know happiness is right around the corner and it is ALWAYS my choice on how I feel.

I am no Guru.  I am a girl searching for that happy comfort of home, regardless of where I am.  I am yearning for enlightenment, whatever that even is. I know life seems like everything is turned upside down and is a fucked up mess.  It feels like I should have a silver lining there but really it is what it is.  I can’t pretend like people aren’t losing their shit.  I know it isn’t a solution to pretend as if this shit isn’t going on around us but I can try to focus my attention on what I want to happen.  I can attempt to be calm in the midst of the storm.  I can try to have my heart be at peace and know deep down that everything is going to be okay, even though it looks as if everything is going to go down in flames.  I also understand it is probably going to get way worse before it gets better.  I have faith in the future.  I have faith in humanity. It will get better, eventually.

I have been on a long path of self-discovery, trying to figure out who I am and what I want.  This is my journey of life and figuring it out.  I would love to help others not to suffer needlessly.  I’m sharing my process of life with others in the hope it will bring some comfort to someone else going through the same struggles.  I don’t have much figured out but we all have to start somewhere.  I hope this helps you on your path and maybe we can learn from each other. I have my dark moments too.  I am not perfect.  I have the wide array of human emotions in me that I have to deal with daily.  It isn’t always easy being human, but really I think we make it much harder than it needs to be.  This is my introverted observation of dealing with my emotions, other people, and life in general.  Thank you for visiting, reading and sharing.